I Must Break You

I’m pretty sure that I’ve never seen any of the Rocky movies.  Not the full, uncut, uncensored, unadapted-for-television-audiences movies.  I’ve seen bits and pieces and probably watched the original on TV sometime in the early 80’s.  But by the time I was close to getting out of high school there were already on Rocky IV.  I didn’t see it.  But the Cold War meeting of Rocky Balboa and Drago hardly needed to be watched.  We breathed it in the air and ate it in our breakfast cereal.

One line from the movie caught the attention of my best friend.  Drago says to Rocky in the ring “I must break you.”  Powerful words.  No mercy.  No kindness.  Nothing but the imperative to destroy and break Rocky as a fighter, as a man, and of course thematically, as an American.

But tonight, teaching a class on the first chapter of Romans to a group of women in recovery from alcohol and drug addiction, I realized how appropriate this line is on such a grander scale.  I think Satan would be happy to put it in his own mouth as he gloated over the recently fallen creation, over Adam and Eve choking on the forbidden fruit, on the penalty of the Law – Death – being introduced into perfection.  But the phrase is better and ultimately more appropriate in the mouth of God.  Insisting that none of our pretenses, none of our objections, none of our rebuttals can be left to stand in false defense of our sinfulness, of our brokenness, of our abject, filthy rebellion against the one true God and Creator of all things so that we might pretend to justify our rebellious acts, our eating of our own forbidden fruit as though nothing were wrong.

Paul won’t let that be.  God the Holy Spirit says through St. Paul I must break you.  Your objections.  Your false hopes.  Your pathetic excuses.  Your sham righteousness.  I must break you of all those things.  Completely.  Brutally if necessary, as brutal as a thrashing in the ring between two formidable opponents.  But it has to be done.  We must be backed into the corner with no defense, no strength, no illusions of how defeated we are, how completely unable we are to argue our way out of the power and righteousness and Law of God.  Ignorance?  Don’t be ridiculous.  Wisdom?  Don’t waste my time.  Create your own truth?  Go ahead, see how that works out for you in the end.  One by one batting away our feeble attempts to block, our limp jabs and efforts to push God away from us and leave us in peace as basically all right.

We’re not basically all right.  Not by default.  And nothing we do or create or say or believe can make us right.  Only God can.  Only the God who created us can restore us from our fallenness.  Only the Word by which all creation came into being is the Word that can proclaim  forgiven.  Only the presence of the Holy Spirit of God can guard us from the ever-present whispering temptations to shift our reliance back onto ourselves, to claim some of God’s glorious forgiveness and grace as our own, some of his holiness as our own.

We either accept it completely from him or we have nothing at all.  He must break us of our delusions to the contrary.

That moment when people finally realize this, when they cut through the crappy theology in pop-worship focused more on entertainment and self-improvement and feel-good  effects rather on the truth that we are hopeless without God, that moment is amazing.  To watch the struggle, the rejection, and – if fortunate enough and honest enough – that recognition of this truth, that is amazing.  That moment when someone admits that even when they do something nice or kind or good, there’s a stinking little pellet of  self-centeredness at the heart of it is exquisite.

To be able to tell them that only the Bible will tell them this.  Every other philosophy and religion or lack thereof will tell them just the opposite.  That there is hope, and that hope is inside of them.  All they need to do is open themselves to enlightenment.   Submit themselves more rigorously in obedience.  Strive with all their utmost  to attain God’s grace and share  his love, trust the whispered promises of social science and genetic modifications and all other manner of  controlling the production of human life.  Only the Bible, only when God’s Word is preached and taught in fullness and truth do we hear the terrifying, offensive truth.  You can do nothing.  You have nothing.  You are guilty as charged and deserving of the full penalty of the Law.

Only in the Word of God are we fully broken.  And only in the Word of God are we more fully restored.  Forgiven.  Healed.  Perfected.  Only when we have nothing left of our own can we be capable of receiving what God has to offer in his Son, Jesus the Christ.  We must be completely broken down, so that He can restore us to more than we ever knew we were or could be.  Only when we are stripped of confidence can we truly hope.

Brutal and beautiful.

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